With love from a Soldier

Sara,

Hey dear! I wish I even knew why did I actually start writing this. After all these years, seeing you in your favorite color, at the same place, catching the same bus to your work, it all felt like nothing has changed. It still is the same. But that's a dark illusion, isn't it? Just because of the perpetual wars at the borders I couldn't make it to your deadline, you married to someone else, who matched your caste, status and of course made you feel secured. I saw that little girl who is just the carbon copy of yours. What did you name her? Does she blabbers like you or is an antagonist to your persona? (giggles)....

I never had the courage to make it up to you. Years passed by, in the same cantonment, in the midst of same cacophony of battles in the battlefield, in the same air and zephyr of life and death and nothing in between them. The only thing but I did remember ever was that twinkle my dream girl once had, when she used to see me coming from miles away. Had time's been different, if I managed escaping from the mess I am in, would you have stayed with me, lived for me, prayed for me or loved me more? I still wonder. What was right, what is wrong, who actually decided? Was is it really us? Or we were robots with specific proportion of emotions which denied access to the intrusion of own logic and accepted the commands of society only? Life's a labyrinth, days and nights are the roads and I am just walking across them, collecting the dust of bygones and searching for some pinch of purpose to hang in here. And when you appeared suddenly in this chaos, I felt like it got a subtle meaning to my existence. I was so close and yet you were so far. But I blame no one, for I know there will be another timeline, in some other world, we shall meet again, when I perhaps will be anything you would want me to be and we shall live for ourselves and own selves forever....

I won't ask you to forgive me, or be perplexed with this verse of mine. May be it was the last piece of my notions I had secretly hidden in my voids. That's now delivered to you. May you be bestowed with all the happiness you want.

Yours forever,

With love

from your soldier